while dreaming of eternal winter roses and bittersweet lies
the fake-blood princess loses herself in the charm and the beauty of all that surrounds her
she has lost all value of that which was stolen from her before
and wants to hide underneath the sheets of innocence.
even when she was told the truth that hurts the ear,
she would rather be that which she is not.
deep down, however, she knows that even if she was a blossoming flower
she would still want to be rotten inside.
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the text is unrelated to what i will say here, hehe:
i feel terrible, last journal i told you about how i agreed to sing along with my friend a song in an animecon's karaoke contest this december 13.
however, i had promised since before that my bff and i would go traveling together...
she made all plans and we're leaving Dec 12th.
i do not want to tell him i am going to quit, the problem is i do not want to quit....but i cannot let this opportunity go.
i really want to go to that contest and see all my friends...but i am very materialistic
i feel so bad...we were both so full of illusion, i had already plans for a choreography and we were meeting this saturday to practice...
if i was this illusioned with someone else and they told me something like this...i would cry.
i'm glad he is not shy and that he is willing to sing by himself, but we were going to have so much fun singing and dancing stupid songs up there.
and i was going to meet with all of my old friends

oh my heart is broken, even if i do not want to go, my mother would never let me miss this travel for a karaoke contest(especially because i am not so good at singing)..